As everyone know by now ,Yes ,i’m pregnant with Number 4.Someday,i feel like what i sign for?……And i bet a lots of mom have the same feeling at time.Don’t take me wrong,but be pregnant and take care of 3 kids and house and husband too,day in and day out is not a easy task.But today something happen.My rule is Not “Mall” on saturday with kids,it ’s a big NO!NO!,but i promise Audrey that we would go to Barnes and NOBLE to support her school,I forgot to tell Mitchell,so he was all ready gone for a bike ride so i took all the kids.At first everything was fine,the girls were really good.I was happy that everything was going good,Audrey did what she supposte do and so on.Olivia was getting a little restless to be there so i was telling Audrey to pick up her book ,Annika was right by me ,but i left Olivia’s  arm for just a second and there she goes running away..I can’t really describe the stay of mind i was ,so i start yelling ,Olivia ,i told the register lady Lost Child Purple shirt and stripe pants!!please,a mom from school was helping me and she finally  find her after 2 minutes that i was screaming in the store.The little rascal was hiding i couldn’t  see her…In my mind i was going 300 mile  ,my stomach was super tight,my hart was really pounding.After i grab her i  first i hung  her then  and i did spanked her..She was really quite the all time back home and after her nap she said “Sorry Mom”,i’m not sure where i would be now if she wasn ‘t here .I’m telling you my day is not been  a normal day ,after that.I feel like i really “Bad mom”.For sure i’m not the first or the last but i realize that i have to do better.My kids are growing and what i would do if the get lost in any kind of way i have to be on top of thing.Some day be a mom have for sure has ups and downs but,Havenly FAther trust me ,with this little people and i have to do  more then my best to make sure they don’t get lost …I love to see my kids when they sleep  because i know where they are and they are well take care for,and also the look so peaceful and cute…For now as individual ,i’m on Hold i will get to what i want to do,but for now i have to stick with what i started almost 9 years ago…..I sure love my kids but some day let me tell ya…….

Ale